Overwhelmed Mom – Being a Mother

Is it normal to want to be able to just breathe for 5 minuets? Is it normal to be an Overwhelmed Mom? I mean, I know I am a Mother. I made the choice to be responsible for two lives, and I would never take that back. I love my kids, more than I love anything in the entire world, even chocolate ice cream, and I love my chocolate ice cream a whole heck of a lot. Being a Mother is love.

However, sometimes I think it would be beneficial to my health to have 5 minuets to myself. Yes, I have time after they go to bed, or in the shower, but every waking second in my life is either spent raising them, worrying about them, or thinking about them… that, and beating myself up wondering if I am doing something wrong. Being a Mother is exhausting in more than one way.

Both the kids are sick lately. Colds as far as I can tell. Super unpleasant. Baby Girl who is 16 months is pretty upset about all that gooey goop in her nose. Can’t say I blame her, it’s awful being all stuffed up. She hasn’t been sleeping well, and between that and my husband snoring like a freight train in my ear, I can’t say I have slept much… or at all really. Being a Mother is relentless.

Last night I was at the point of dreaming of sticking my head in the washing machine on the rinse cycle to at least cleanse my aura… or drown my sorrows, whatever came first really. Being a Mother is 24/7.

Today the kids are impossible. Little man is just tired and yucky feeling and Baby Girl is exhausted because she didn’t sleep last night, and completely upset about everything. Being as I didn’t get much sleep either, I am running on fumes and feeling as though packing up and moving to Brazil, changing my name from Mommy to Fernanda and living a relaxing life drinking Caipirinha would be pretty nice right now. But, I would miss the kids. Heck, just thinking about it I already miss them. Being a Mother is confusing.

But then, they both climbed up on my lap, snuggled into my arms and sighed. That sigh gets me every time! That sigh means to me, that they feel safe, they feel comfortable and most of all they feel loved. That means everything to me. Being a Mother is rewarding.

Being a Mother is my life, and as much as sometimes I think I would like to pack up and move, I have no idea what I would do without their faces, the good and bad times, the messy kisses, the too tight hugs and all the memories we create. Being a Mother is the best thing on the planet.

8 thoughts on “Overwhelmed Mom – Being a Mother”

  1. Oh, mama, any mother who says she hasn’t felt overwhelmed or wanted to put her head in the washer better be wearing flame retardant pants because they’re liable to burst into flames any second. Moms are people too. I wouldn’t take back my decision to have my children, but they do take a lot out of me, every day. We give our minds, bodies, souls and hearts to this job. It’s taxing, but totally worth it. When you need a breather, find a way to take it. Call in some back up. Make sure they’re safe and lock yourself in the bathroom for a minute. Whatever you need to do. We’ve all been there. Big hugs!

  2. It is absolutely normal to feel overwhelmed. I do all the time, ALL THE TIME. I too feel like a bad mother for wanting time without the kids around but really, we would go crazy with anyone around us too much and all over us and needing us. It doesn’t mean we don’t love them at all. Me time is important for everyone. Thanks for a good read.

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